Dyslexic, Attention Deficit Disorder, Different Learning Styles?

I’m dedicating this blog post to anyone who has a learning disability.

Over the years of going to school, switching programs and being in different groups of people, I always thought I was stupid.  Not knowing I had a learning disability, I would just squeeze by to the next semester.  I couldn’t understand why other students could grasp the meanings and I was constantly stuck getting fifty percent in every class.  I felt so empty in a sense, I was really left out, constantly struggling over and over again.  I would sometimes have to leave class because all that information didn’t make sense to me.

You are not stupid!  You just need more time to build yourself in that field and in most cases you’re smarter than the people around you, you just haven’t put the pieces to the puzzle yet.  I still struggle with typing, grammar and writing a million words in blog posts.  To be honest, I’m not one to be constantly wording things especially paragraphs and papers.  I am very weak in writing and reading, but I’m excellent in public speaking, performing live and that artsy mode.

No matter what the learning disability is, you are exceptionally amazing at something that no one else is.  For example, I am good at writing music but school is extremely hard for me.  I can never fully understand why I’m still doing it, why students reject me for being different, why I’m constantly stuck in a rut. Building websites, art, music and Photoshop I can do without even thinking.

Anyone experiencing discomfort or feeling lost, you are not alone.  Don’t ever doubt yourself for being different, be grateful you can think outside of the box and be exceptionally good at something.  I set the bar very high and expect myself to be on top of my game.  Sometimes I think I have a disease and people look at me as a zombie, but I constantly have to remind myself I’m normal and yes I have flaws, but who doesn’t?

Keep your chin up and don’t stress.


Texting and Driving.

So I’m stopped at a red light, I’m just browsing around to look at the scenery and listening to music. Suddenly a red car pulls up with two people, one middle-aged man and one very young teen. The driver scopes out the cars around him and starts texting.  I’ve had friends killed in accidents from texting and driving so this situation got me angry.  As he’s secretively typing away, I rolled down my window and started yelling at him to roll down his. He ignores me and keeps typing away. He looks around to scope out any police or undercovers. Before the light turned green, I got out of my car and stood in front of his.  He rolls down his window and starts yelling at me to get out of the way, but I ignore him.  He finally decides to get out of his car. He gives that intimating look as if he wanted to hit me. Before he could get one word out I gave him a twenty minute speech about texting and driving.  He ignored me and got into his car and drove away.

Later that day, two undercovers pulled over the same guy I spoke to earlier.  He was getting a thousand dollar fine with three demerit points.  When I saw this I pulled over and gave the guy a smile and a thumbs up.  He was even angrier and started screaming at the top of his lungs with blasphemous language at me.  At one point he even threatened to kill me and the undercover arrested him.  Karma – the best way to get back at someone.


Please don’t text and drive!

Here is a link about texting and driving.



Skateboarding, Punk Rock and Nintendo

No phones, no texting, no social media, just skateboarding, punk rock and Nintendo. Those were the days. What happened? Oh yeah… Playstation 4 came out, Instagram and Facebook are destroying our posture and people are less motivated to go out.

What happened over the years? I remember my brother and I would blast Nofx in the car and go to the nearest punk show. Where has time gone? People are more snobby, more competitive about how perfect they look on their Instagram and how many likes they get.  The society around us use to be so lean and more social. Now we got people who don’t even look at you when you’re talking to them.

Skateboarding use to be popular, now we got the electronic dance music scene and skateboarding is dead in Ottawa. I don’t know anyone who skateboards anymore. It’s a sad environment we live in now, no more CDs, no more good shows, rarely any punk shows, Nintendo 64 and Gamecube are not in fad anymore.  We are run by likes, trance and phone apps.

Gamecube, one of the best old school consoles. - Recently re-bought.

Gamecube, one of the best old school consoles. – Recently re-bought.

It’s all up to you!

How many people have doubted you for something you believed in?  It’s tough, especially in a World based around competition.  There’s no escaping competition or doubt.  The negativity lies in each and every one of us, whether it’s going to school, trying out for a big band, competing against a soccer team, saving money, etc.

It’s all up to you to do something about it.  I would know, I have been playing music for eleven years in various bands.  I am constantly educating myself in the music business and trying different free software to create music and get it uploaded on music cites. Friends and family have told me “you’ll never get anywhere with music”, but I kept going, it’s in my blood, something I was born with and will never let me quit.

You just have to pretend that those negative thoughts and doubts are just a dream. There’s always a way to smack them out of your life. If you want something really bad, work your butt off for it and just mute out all the doubters.  There are always going to be those people that try to bring you down. Smack them out! Just “Keep on, Keepin’ on!”

Matthew Stolarik - Live at The Cabin 2014 Ottawa, Canada.

Matthew Stolarik – Live at The Cabin 2014 Ottawa, Canada.

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Blog #2 – Story Telling and Communication Styles – Matthew Stolarik

Get to the point! A solid introduction leading into the body helps reveal what the topic is about and what key elements are going to be addressed.  Nothing makes the reader or audience more aggravated than reading something that has no point, engaging the audience as much as possible and expanding their imagination is a plus.  The tone of voice is also an extremely large factor. Have you ever sat in class for a two hour period listening to a monotone teacher? I know I have and it was the most boring semester I’ve ever sat through, I’m surprised I even passed.


“You have ten to fifteen seconds and then you’re done!” Have you ever heard that expression? I know I have as musician and especially in the public speaking sector.  You have ten to fifteen seconds to engage the crowd in something uplifting or you’ve lost the audience’s attention.  Whether its storytelling or a written paper make sure the words jump out to the audience, almost like a brand statement – “Your statement is 1-2 sentences answering what you are the best at (value), who you serve (audience) and how you do it uniquely (USP). It sums up your unique promise of value. Your personal brand statement is distinctive to you and you alone.” (N/A, 2015)


N/A. (2015, June 1). Personal Branding. Retrieved from How to Craft Your Personal Brand Statement: http://theundercoverrecruiter.com/how-craft-your-personal-brand-statement/


Blog 1, COM0011 -The Birth, Struggles and Resurrection of Eminem

Eminem, born Marshall Bruce Mathers, is a pre-eminent rap musician of the twentieth century.  He was born into poverty and deprivation and raised by a drug addicted single mother.  Although he lacked much formal education, he was interested in words and the poetry form of rhyming words.  He succeeded in a black music genre despite his colour.  In spite of many challenges, he has achieved stardom in the music and motion picture industry.

Marshall Bruce Mathers (Eminem) was born on October 17, 1972 in Saint Joseph, Missouri to Marshall Mathers Jr. (twenty-one years of age) and Deborah Nelson (seventeen years of age).  His parents were both musicians playing in a band called Daddy Warbucks.  The father left the family when Eminem was six months old.  He and his mother bounced from place to place, school to school and eventually ended up in Detroit, Michigan living on the rough side of the “8 Mile” line which divided Detroit’s neighbourhoods.  In Detroit, 8 Mile road was the border between the poor black and the white neighbourhoods. He lived on the poor black side of the line. (Eminem, Eminem – The Way I Am, 2009)

Eminem’s early life was characterized by poverty, neglect and mistreatment.  As a child, Eminem was poor, often on welfare, sometimes without a home and couch surfing with family and friends.  He often changed schools as many as two to three times a year.  When he was in grades eight and nine, he was the victim of bullying and physical assault.  He dropped out of school after failing grade nine three times.  He reported that he never had many friends and never felt like he belonged to anyone.  He had a deep love for words and language and he used to read the dictionary.  “I found that no matter how bad I was at school, like, and no matter how low my grades might have been at some points, I was always good at English.” (Eminem Biography, n.d.)

Eminem’s introduction to Hip-Hop occurred at the age of eleven courtesy of his uncle Ronald Nelson.  By the time Eminem was fourteen he knew he wanted be a rapper.  He was called “trailer park trash” so often that he decided to court this image. (Eminem, Eminem – The Way I Am, 2009)  In Detroit he frequently participated in rapping competitions held locally in his neighbourhood.  He was often the only white man competing in this black art form.  It appealed to him because he found his voice in this tough streetwise talk.  He said that rapping was all about bragging and boasting and releasing his anger.  His early songs were an attack on his parents, a painfully public way of settling his scores. (Eminem Biography, n.d.)

Eminem’s fascination with words and rhyming has made him one of the most important musicians in this genre of music.  In an interview on 60 Minutes, he described the importance of breaking down words to make them rhyme.  He carries around with him boxes of word ideas which he calls “stacking ammo”.  These are short bursts of words that rhyme and are congregant with a single idea.  He said that reading the dictionary helped him develop this process. (Eminem, Eminem 60 Minutes Full Interview, 2010)

In 1997, Eminem travelled to the Rap Olympics competition in Los Angeles.  He won second place as well as the attention of the staff at Interscope Records, who sent a copy of his demonstration tape the company’s chief executive officer Jimmy Iovine.  He took this tape to record producer Dr. Dre, founder of Aftermath Entertainment.  Dr. Dre recalled, “In my entire career in the music industry, I have never found anything from a demo tape or a CD.  When Jimmy played this tape, I said find him!” This man launched Eminem’s career.  He is now the winner of thirteen Grammy Awards and a 2003 Academy Award for best original song “Lose Yourself”.  His net worth is more than 170 million. (Eminem Net Worth, 2015)  He has sold more than 42 million tracks and 49.1 million albums in the United States, and 100 million albums internationally.  (Eminem, Eminem – The Way I Am, 2009)

Eminem has faced many challenges in his life as musician.  The first challenge was protests from women’s groups and gay alliances about his offensive lyrics against them.  The second was his addiction to drugs like Ambien, Hycoden and Valium which resulted in an overdose in December 2007. (Eminem, Eminem 60 Minutes Full Interview, 2010)  He almost died of respiratory failure because all three of these drugs depress your breathing.  In addition, he was also addicted to alcohol. His third challenge was being a white rapper in a field of music where the artist were almost always black. (Eminem, Eminem 60 Minutes Full Interview, 2010)

In spite of his destitute childhood and many challenges, Eminem is making a recovery.  He has been sober for two and half years.  He has just released a new album called Shady XV.  He is teaching himself how to write and rap again.  His charity, The Marshall Mathers Foundation, provides funds to organizations working with disadvantaged youth in Michigan.  He continues to support his daughters and push them towards college because he never got to go.  Eminem stated “I’m as happy as I can be, I guess…. Hip-Hop saved my life, man.  It’s the only thing I’ve been decent at.  I don’t know how to do anything else.  I think they have a word for that – what do they call it? Idiot savant?” (Stone, 2013)

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Stone, R. (2013, November 20). Eminem Reborn: Inside the New Issue of Rolling Stone. Retrieved from Rolling Stone: http://www.rollingstone.com/music/news/eminem-reborn-inside-the-new-issue-of-rolling-stone-20131120