My entire life I have always been a little bit heavier while all my friends were the “perfect” weight. I didn’t pay too much attention to my weight until I was in middle school. Then the catty girls and the name calling started. It was horrible. I wouldn’t go to school for days, or I would wear clothes much too large for me. By the time I got to high school I had found my group and things got better for the most part. I started to thin out a little bit and I felt better about myself. Then as my teen years got closer to my 20’s I started to gain weight back again. I was never small in that time period but wasn’t as heavy as I could have been I suppose.
As I progressed into my 20’s I was always around the same weight until my long term boyfriend and I broke up. At the same time we had quite a few family problems going on. Around that time is when I lost a bunch of weight, but it was mostly due to stress. For an entire summer I felt pretty and that guys were actually paying attention to me. It wasn’t the right kind of attention though. After that summer I quit smoking and started to gain some of the weight back. I battled on and off for years with the quitting and starting of smoking and in turn gained more weight back each time I quit. By this point I was at the highest weight I have ever been, but I had no idea. I never felt that big or felt it in my health. It wasn’t until later on and I look at pictures of myself and think I couldn’t believe I was that big.
A little over two years ago I started volunteering at a gym which in turn gave me a free membership. I though “heck ya I’m going to use this all the time”. And I did for a couple months. Eating healthier and working out. Then I quickly got too busy and everything went downhill again, and again, and again. I then realized it’s hard to jump head first into meal planning and going to the gym, especially when you have a schedule like mine. Since then I have joined a nutrition class to work on my eating. I know I can work out, but 70% of weight loss and muscle building is what you put into your body. Although I feel better I still have those moments that I don’t look so great. So I just keep reminding myself that little milestones have been made. Even though I can’t make it to the gym every day I try and do something at home. My meal prepping is on point some weeks, but lacks in desire others, but Pinterest and my Nutrition Coach are amazing resources. There are also lots of other places on the lovely internet that are free for meal planning and at home or in the gym workouts.
My weight-loss is not something I usually discuss with anyone, but I think maybe it’s time I recognize I need to talk about it. I know those little issues we have are not easy to talk about maybe to friends and family, but just remember we are all strangers and we have your back.
Has anyone had similar issues as I have?Do you have something you would like to talk about?