I’m an accomplished accountant, spreadsheet guru, technical whiz and lover of all things scientific. Numbers get me excited. Words on the other hand, scare me. Rather, writing words, online, scares me. I nearly failed all high school English classes and swore that I’d never take another course again that required writing. And here I am 25 years after I made that vow, taking a course where I have to write. I’ve subjected myself to some crazy things in my life, but enrolling in this course takes the cake. So why am I doing this? I have to admit, that it’s all about the money.
As I said, I’m an accountant. Numbers, money and the quest for success drive me to a large extent. Three years ago a friend took a look at my photography and suggested that I should sell it and I agreed. And then I realized that I knew nothing about photography, and realized I didn’t have a creative bone in my body. I was still very captivated that I could make money, so I enrolled in a photography certificate program and over the course of many years came to the shocking realization that I did have a creative side….and it was beautiful…and it felt wonderful. I developed a niche and decided that my business model would be online-based. Horror then struck when I realized that my success would not be founded on how good my product was, but rather on my online content which included blogging. I dug in my heels and was determined that I would do everything that it takes to have a successful online business, but that I wouldn’t blog. It was an intense fear due to the fact that writing was not natural to me even in childhood and I had never given myself the opportunity to develop that creative talent. After many months of trying to convince myself that online content wasn’t required for my success, I finally gave up. I had let the fear of thinking that my poorly developed creative writing side get in the way of being a business success.
And so, I have given in. I am giving myself the privilege to hone a creative side that is still unknown to me by enrolling in this course. This is my first effort in 25 years to write, and yes, it is money motivated. But I do know how wonderful it will feel when I discover that creative side. I look forward to the positively explosive emotions that will come forth when I discover that there was a talent hidden and that I get to share it with the world….and be profitable too!
For more information on a pro blogger’s former fear of blogging please visit http://www.problogger.net/archives/2010/10/11/the-7-deadly-fears-of-blogging-and-how-to-overcome-them/